[07-07-12, Thu, Cloudy] Big turn, Calm Down

Woke up with my mobile clock showing: 12:05, putain!

I opened my book called "Datamining" and began reading, but not after 15mins did i make a sudden and big decision of life. An idea that seems never came to me before suddenly stroke me after 10-hour sound sleep, perhaps also combined with the influence of a small chat with Thomas, and something Alfa is embedding in my brain also my spirit these days. Well, i am the "never waiting" type, so after a long chain of calls and communication, the decision is almost settled after 6 hours, which might be the most important hours of my life... Well, there is still something i should mention myself always, "Timing" and "Not doing things in an extreme way" are the two most important things i learnt in 1 year, keep it in mind!

Now i am just writing to myself on blog to make me calm down. Well, there is a long journey in front of me and a huge loaf of shitty work also. But somehow i am quite confident at this kind of work, much more confident than the "datamining" theory seems. Actually I feel much more released now, to pursuit what I am longing for. But why my heart is beating so fast? too fast maybe, calm down, kathy, calm down...

"C'est la vie." ( This is life.) This is one of the mostly used expression of French people, i use it often while i hate it more often. Such a sad expression and almost an excuse for not struggling hard. "C'est la vie? Putain, la vie est dans la main!" (This is life? f*ck, life is in the hand!) This is what i really believe and what I belong to.